What’s up? My name is Nate and I’m a gender fluid/variant 19 year old from Savannah, Georgia. I usually present as male, but I really enjoy mixing gendered clothing and having fun with outfits!
Even though I go to an art school (SCAD) and I’m surrounded by proponents of equality, it’s still hard for me to feel comfortable doing anything but traditional male presentation. I used to think I’d never be able to go outside in heels or pair a skirt with an otherwise masculine outfit, but thanks to Elliot’s blog, I’ve been gaining a lot of confidence.
I hope that the people reading this can share some of my confidence, in particular the guys who back away from daring to question gender-fashion norms because they’re too afraid of being judged. At the risk of sounding cliche, fuck the haters yo.
If you think your face is too “masculine” or “feminine” to suit a non-traditional style, then think again. If you think you don’t have the makeup skills or the attitude to present as something other than your assigned-at-birth gender, think again! I don’t exactly have a “girly” face, nor does my makeup knowledge extend beyond blush and lipstick, but I make it work!
Believing in yourself is everything.
Don’t let self-doubt prevent you from being who you want to be.
So, yesterday I went to officially switch majors into the Art Studio program. We sat down to look at my schedule for the next few years, when the topic of the BFA Program (Bachelor of Fine Arts Residency Program) came up, which I really, actually want to do more than anything. Well, it turns out that I can get a BFA in Photography and still graduate in three years, which is awesome!
…..but, I have to apply to the program next semester. What’s the problem? This means I have to a have a full, cohesive, multi-disciplinary (through strong emphasis on photography) body of work to be presented and judged to see if I’m worthy of being accepted into the program, by the end of the fall semester.
I don’t have anything.
This semester was the first studio class I’ve ever taken, and I have no work from my personal life to show.
I have the summer and like half a semester to make this happen….
I actually have two chances to get accepted: fall and doing semester of next year….but I need to go into the fall with work that has a chance of getting accepted.
BUT STILL. I’m going to have to bust my ass at this, which is fine, but I don’t even own a fucking camera yet. Like, I almost had a panic attack while working in the studio yesterday from how overwhelmed I felt. I’m going to do this, I know I can do this, but this is going to be like the fucking battle of my college career.
But still, if I land this, it’s going to be amazing.
“I hate to advocate drugs, alcohol, violence, or insanity to anyone, but they’ve always worked for me.”
Grace Bol photographed by Max Von Gumppenberg & Patrick Bienert for Vogue Germany May 2014.
at Camberwell College of Arts